things going wrong now..

2th -3th June 2010

I went to Shah Alam.. Firstly Ikah drop me at Sunway Pyramid.. 5.00 pm janji ngan Shafika nak tengok movie sama2.. ok fine, Dia dah janji nak kuar ngan aku, then dia leh bawak bf dia skali.. almost 100 times aku called dia, dia leh lupa nak beli tiket wayang and dia dah beli seat kapel tok dia n her bf.. xpe aku sabar.. dalam cinema aku dok kt blah tepi.. mula2 ada sorg mamat, then sepasang couple cina n aku.. cina 2 leh offer mamat 2 dok sbelah aku plak.. sek baik mamat 2 xnak.. tp aku leh nmpk dia asyk pndg2 je.. rimas! sampai masa kat toilet pun dia asyik toleh2 je.. jakun gle mamat 2..

Walaupun sakit hati ngn shafika, aku tetap leh sabar ngn karenah dia.. malam 2 dia nk bwk aku g lagoon.. unfortunately, tutup plak.. then die bwk aku g I-City.. wah! cantiknya lampu2.. tapi masa xsesuai.. dia leh bantai bgaduh ngn bf dia and dua2 dah bad mood.. aku, dengan sakit kaki pki kasut tumit tinggi, dengan penat yg xilang, dengan hati yg sakit, rasa sangat2 bosan kat sana.. jalan sorg2, senyum sorg2, ckp sorg2.. aku mintk tolong diorg amik kn pics pin diorg buat mke xikhlas.. sudah nya aku amik pic sndiri.. Faiz plak kate nak dtg, xde lah aku bwk Wani g sne.. leh plak dia xdtg.. btmbh pedih hati aku..

12.00am~ met faiz at section 13.. dia bwk aku g Bukit Ampang.. teruja tengok lampu!! then dia bwk g Dataran Merdeka, and Dataran Shah Alam.. seems like xnk hantar aku balik.. dia xbyk bckp.. just stay quiet and look at me all the time.. i can see he really missing me..

3.30am~ he send me back to Wani's home.. right after he left the house, send me a msg prevent me from fall asleep..

4.00am-4.47am~ Faiz called me and cried all the time.. asking my forgiveness and keep said he gonna love me till the end of life.. xtau nape aku btol2 xleh trima die.. pikiran nak trima tapi hati rasa xbahagia.. msg Farhan, he said 'wt pe nk cian kalo hati xske'.. urrhh!!

3th June 2010..

Sampai rumah.. on fb terbaca kwn Farhan punya wall.. ' Kama nk dating ngn Fara'.. ok that is enough to tell me don't ever thinks good about him.. back to Faiz, he's accepted! I'll try my best to post him in the right place in my heart.. tp dia ada cite psl one gurl yg keep contact him.. sorg pompuan yg kmatian bf didepan mata nya sndiri.. but why should she find Faiz sbgi tmpt mngadu? am i jealous? i don't know.. xjeles tp ade gak la trase sket.. hello! he's my ex ok! xtau la btol or x Faiz xde prasaan kt die.. aku nk cy tp aku tkt dia tipu aku =/

5th June 2010..

aku yg xbg Faiz msg aku slalo, now aku asyk rse xbest je kalo xmsg.. kalo die msg pompuan 2 ble die boring cm ne? ahh! persetankn! aku pun leh cr lain.. Esok abg Farhan kawin.. Farhan ade tny aku dtg umah dia or x? adakah itu sekadar pertanyaan or terselit secebis harapan? wah, madah indah! haha.. IZzah beria2 nk g.. ok aku admit ia agak berat bg aku.. but should i care? they just friend and if they r mean 2 be together, sape aku tok mhlg? tp tibe2 izzah xnk g..aku tny nape dia xnk gtau.. ble da pjuk2 finally she said she got period pain.. leh cy ke?

Everything changed now..environment, feeling, acting and so on.. what is that means? apa pun aku cuma harap ia adalah untuk kebaikan aku tok mse akan datang.. if it is for my best, i'll accept it with pleasure.. the most important is, pray the best for my incoming result!!!